isleofavalon | You gotta live better than you were though

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You gotta live better than you were though

🧙 WHO: Gokudera and YOU
⚔️️ WHAT: August catch-all! OTA
🕒 WHEN: August
🗺️ WHERE: New Camelot (predominantly)
⚠️ WARNINGS: Language, violence, drugs, mentions of past trauma: self-immolation, slavery

I. Healing Circle After Party

Despite most of his friends helping him, Gokudera has felt very alone since he learned of Yamamoto's absence. It's not the first time he's lost someone he's cared about. He's not being loud about his heartbreak and has seen on the network that others have lost some people important to them as well. But how often do you lose six different versions of your same friend/rival from home?

Gokudera feels a bit numb, and the strangulation he faced before is healed, but... still, there's pain. It feels like it never goes away, and on his own self-reflection, he realizes it's because he's focusing on it. He needs to use his head before his collar gets rid of it, and he can't problem-solve when it feels like his heart aches more now than it ever has before.

He collects yarrow and lemon balm, enjoying the smell and seeming almost to meditate while he gathers herbs. Once he's done, he's looking about for someone to sit with. There is no visible injury on the young man, and whatever he's going through, he doesn't want to talk about it. He'd rather just get on with the meditative healing.

Even burning the herbs seems somewhat traumatic, and so he closes his eyes and takes a steady breath, wondering why and how he suddenly became so wary of flames. The first thing he will share is fear and pain, a sinking feeling starting from the fingers and winding up the muscle of arms and causing a slight bit of panic. Sorry for sharing, but at least no one has to listen to him talk about why an explosives expert is scared of fire, right?

II. Crystal Mushroom

Gokudera gets on the quest board regularly (it's how he makes most of his money, in fact). Some manual labor feels nice, and he enjoys getting his hands dirty, literally, if only to focus on something he feels he has control over. Cleaning is one thing.

Taking care of a drug-dealer's source is another.

But still, work he can do. Gokudera's out to find Wendy, and he's dressed the part of the mafioso he is. The teen's donned a suit and he's come with the intent to threaten with dynamite, or explain that Wendy might find herself with some bad luck. If anyone stops him on his way to find her, he'll be honest.

He's going to beat up some drug-dealer. That's all they need to know. Gonna take out some aggression. Want to supervise? Help him? Hold him back? Talk him out of it?

III. Don't Treep, Man

Gokudera can be found repairing fences, looking out for fairy nests in the farm land, and helping to clean up the orchards. He has no green magic, but it's moments like these that he wish he did. The boy's very eager to be close to real, live trees. Too many years trapped in worlds where everything was either a hologram, or irradiated has him grateful to sit on fertile soil while he takes a hammer to a fence. The sun might be beating down on him a little too hard, burning at his skin, and he may appreciate someone helping him out. The fairies in the area seem to be enjoying his company, though, and are a fun distraction.]

I don't suppose any of you have tips for staying cool?

[The faeries, of course, don't respond, but just keep on gathering blades of grass and taking them back to their nest. Gokudera offers one a nail, looks it over, and then gets up to go make a sort of laundry line by pushing two into the dirt by their nest, tying a string about them, and then leaving a few sweets.]

Don't let the ants get to them, now...

[Few people have seen how tender the boy is towards the fae, and despite what he's been through, he continues to offer gifts, smiles, and any help he can.]

IV. Animal Mage Hunt - Platina Faun

[It's been... an odd couple weeks, and now, for some reason, he's woken up without his normal lower half. Gokudera's not keen on leaving the house, but he has to attend classes, has to escort the Tenth to them. His current transformation is making going out in public especially difficult. He can't wear pants, because he can't fit them past his new set of legs, and his pet leopard keeps looking at him oddly, so he can't stay inside, either. Gokudera can be found napping by the training grounds, eager to spar with anyone who wants a new challenge, or he can be found moving about the forest, foraging for food and stones.

He's keeping to himself, but can also be found walking about the streets of New Camelot, just... trying to run errands as if his cloven footsteps weren't loudly announcing his new features. His bigger concern is whether or not he'll change back. If he does, hopefully it will be in the privacy of his own home, where being without pants is at least acceptable.

Oh well, at least the little stubby horns popping out through his silver hair are cute.]

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[ Here's a new face, semi-fresh from having arrived earlier this week. (And then promptly passing out in her room for most of that time. Canon circumstances can get you even when game events don't.) There are people she could and probably should contact, but Ritsuka is mostly at the stage of recovery where she's bored of just lying around and sleeping constantly, but also where she isn't strong enough to go gallivanting around with high-energy people.

Effectively for now, what this means is that Ritsuka is just slowly wandering through her own personal exploration of the city, doing her best not to seem too much like a tourist. (She's not, technically, right? They're all pretty firmly stuck here for now, as far as she can tell.) At this point, she can recognize most of the buildings immediately around the inn, but also... she's a little lost at this point. And she's dragging her feet on texting the people she knows are around to ask for help--she's gotta be able to handle herself, too--so instead, she turns towards the newcomer to hopefully ask him for directions before she catches sight of the horns. ]

Hey-- ah.

[ Oh no. They are cute. She takes a few seconds to blink rapidly, then clears her throat. ]

Uh. Sorry to bother you, I'm, uh, kinda sorta really lost right now...

[Good thing Gokudera is not a high-energy person, or inclined to gallivant. He's more of a (at least with his new goat features), fan of privately frolicking. The clicking sound of his hooves is amusing even him, and he's just shopping, wondering if he should buy shoes for when he gets his normal feet back... maybe something with soles that click or tap.

Most people leave him alone. He's a fan of keeping to himself, after all, and his grumpy demeanor comes in handy. But her awkward approach is unusual. Gokudera turns to face her fully, shouldering a knitted bag he'd been intending to fill with some groceries and anything else he would decide to buy at the bazaar.]

Where a-a-are you trying to go? [He bleats, clears his own throat and then looks about. The inn, maybe? Does she need an escort back? Is she trying to find any certain place in particular? At least the weather isn't too bad.]

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[ Don't laugh that's rude don't laugh that's rude don't laugh that's rude don't laugh that's rude--

She manages to stop herself, sucking in a quick breath and straightening up a little. It's not even the horns that are the most startling thing, but (most of) the other people she knows who have the whole kemonomimi thing are very--well. They're all deliberately going for a certain aesthetic. There's a difference between fox-girls and a man with deer legs and horns. (Are they from a deer? Maybe a goat?? She doesn't know enough about animals! She can only guess!) ]

Sorry! Back to the inn, please. I got a little turned around somewhere.

[ Don't ask him about his feet! Ritsuka! That's rude!! ]

As long as I know the right direction to go, I'll probably be okay. I wanted to go check that forest out, but, uh... it was further away than I thought...

[ At least, it is when you should theoretically be taking it easy. ]

[Gokudera lifts an eyebrow. Oh, he can tell she's amused by him one way or another and he's waiting for her to comment on whatever it is that she's staring at. The horns? The bleating? Whatever it is, he seems impatient and turns to start walking towards the inn.]

Follow me.

[Said over his shoulder before she mentions the forest. He stops and rolls his eyes.]

Which is it? The forest, or the inn?

[It probably doesn't seem it, because he just comes across as grumpy, but he's far more interested in the forest. Whatever, it's her call. He has nothing better to do at the moment. She can ask whatever she'd like. There's no guarantee he'll answer her, but she can always shoot her shot. It depends also on how she asks.]

I think probably the--

[ She was going to say the inn, because she's been wandering around for the better part of the morning, and she's tired, but that is precisely the moment where her stomach makes a drawn-out gurgling sound.

Ah. Hm. She slept through the complimentary breakfast that morning, and she's still Pretty Damn Broke for now! Her face goes red as her hair for a moment, and she rubs the back of her neck. Oh boy. Cool! Cool and great. ]

--forest... for now.

[ She's not the best camper, and she's certainly not prepared to completely rough it, but you don't spend almost four years with Robin Hood hanging around in your everyday life without learning some things about foraging from him. There's no guarantee that anything she'll find in the forest will be something she recognizes, but she has a little more faith in that than making eyes at a food vendor and hoping someone will take pity on her and slip her a freebie snack. ]

[Gokudera opens his mouth to reply, then shuts it when her stomach complains loudly. He moves to dig through the bag on his shoulder, and almost as soon as she's done rubbing the back of her neck, she will find an apple placed in her hand.]

The forest, then.

[And he's walking past her, because the forest is in the other direction. With him in front, she'll get to see his cute little tail poking out under his shirt, wagging a bit because he loves the forest.]

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...?

[ It takes her a moment, blinking at the apple in her hand like she isn't sure how it got there. Suddenly there's an apple? Where did that come from?!

And then the realization catches up with her, and she pivots on her heel to follow after him, breaking into a trot to keep up. (Oh shit, he's got a tail? That's so cute?! Holy shit!!) ]

Uh! Sorry, and thank you!

--I'm Ritsuka.

[ It feels a little anticlimactic to introduce herself after he's essentially fed her, but also, who expects things like that? Even her own people don't usually just hand her things to eat. ]

[Gokudera slows so she doesn't need to trot after him, and he gives a small huff at her apology and gratitude. Awkward.]

Gokudera.

[He'll just keep walking for a minute or so before asking]

So you're new to Avalon? [If she's lost and trying to stay at the inn (where everyone pretty much calls home when they're new), then chances are she's a new arrival. Gokudera is looking forward to what they might find in the forest, just happy to go there without properly expressing it.]

Yeah, just earlier this week. It's not so bad so far, but...

[ But. There's a lot that can be fit both into and after that word, and after a few seconds, Ritsuka just shrugs. Either he's like her, brought in accidentally against his will, no matter what unfinished business he has left behind--or he's a native who's seen this happen enough times to know the feeling. ]

...I guess, since I'm new, I want to learn as much of my way around as I can. And if I keep sleeping through breakfast, and I don't have any money, the forest is the next best stop. Right?

But?

[He asks and glances over his shoulder at her. They're almost in the forest now, leaving the city and his hooves no longer make so much noise as they strike gently at dirt.]

Why not make money? You can do quests to gain money, you know.

[And he stops just outside the Brocéliande.]

It's a forest, not a grocery store.

If you know what you're doing, you can survive in a forest just fine.

[ If she's bothered by his attitude, it doesn't reflect on her face; it's more like it just rolls off her, like water off a duck's bath. She does take a moment to roll her shoulders and take a deep breath, looking around.

The truth is, she hasn't learned about quests and such yet; if any of her people have told her about it, it's gone over her head entirely. It's a combination of not having her helpful exposition friend around, and trying to recover from what had happened immediately before she'd dropped into that lake. Turns out, when your magical immunity to poison is taken away from you and you have to recover on your own, it kind of sucks. Who knew!

(She'd known, intellectually, but it's another thing entirely to live it.) ]

Anyway--I'm not gonna assume anything about the people who are here, you know? But I also think I can't be the only person who was in the middle of something before I arrived. It's not like anyone got an invitation and the time to think about it, as far as I've heard.

This isn't just any forest, though. It's a magical forest full of strange things that may look normal, but could be unlike anything you've ever dealt with.

[He doesn't mean her specifically. Just a general you. There are things in this world he's never experienced before, and he's been around.]

I haven't been in my home world for years. I've been to two other worlds before this one.

[Gokudera keeps walking, and he's taking them to a clearing so he can have a seat and rest his hooves. They aren't very large, and he feels his legs ache slightly. It's odd to have these new animal body parts, and as soon as he gets them further into the forest, he's moving to sit on a fallen log and rub at his fetlocks.]

Yeah, I bet. [ She knows better than to be cocky about it. ] It's not like I haven't gotten around, but... I guess it's safe to say that I'm good at just rolling with things as they come? There's just kind of a certain point where you just kind of learn to roll with it.

[ When he sits, she starts looking around the clearing more closely. If there are any rings of mushrooms, no matter how small, she's very careful to step around those, lightfooted despite her boots. ]

...I guess, if you're in that kind of situation, you probably know what that's like, huh? Just another day, whatever else is going on in it.

Well, adaptability is one thing. Being aware of the types of magic in this world is another. A few weeks and you should at least be more careful and maybe not forage for survival. There are plenty of ways to make gold in New Camelot.

[Gokudera isn't looking for food. This spot doesn't have many safe mushrooms to eat if there are any. There can be tricks in the forest, paths that wind and repeat unless certain trigger items are collected, certain riddles or puzzles solved.]

I'm a human. Waking up like this... it's one of those things you have to roll with. I've been rolling with the punches a lot. Been something of a punching bag for fate or whatever.

[Gokudera lights a cigarette and looks up into the trees surrounding the clearing, finding peace in the moment as wind rustles the branches.]

Even if there's lots of ways to make money, I'd still want to be self-sufficient if I had to be.

[ Traditionally, Ritsuka is great at surviving things and not so great at remembering self-care. Especially when that includes things like "eat a meal" or "remember human beings need to sleep sometimes." To some degree, it's because she had people looking out for her, and some of them are even in this strange Camelot... but that doesn't mean she doesn't want to be able to take care of herself.

After a bit of idle searching, though, she wanders over to stand next to him, folding her arms behind her back and also looking up, to the canopy overhead. ]

Yeah? Some people have real E-rank luck... "sorry to hear that" isn't really helpful, I know, but... I'm sorry to hear that.

Mn.

[That's respectable. She makes a fair point.]

I think being self-sufficient is important, but maybe allowing yourself this time to adjust when you don't need to be doing so is also important. The last world I was on required a self-sufficient lifestyle. I felt like a fuckin' scavenger.

[At her apology, he waves a hand dismissively.]

Far from the worst thing that's ever happened to me.

[Gokudera stands up and brushes off the white fur of his legs. There, now she doesn't have to ask about how he got his cute goat features! He just... woke up like this.]

[ She's 100% going to be have deer features later and remember this, but that's a problem for future Ritsuka to worry about. For now, she turns her head to look at him sidelong. ]

I guess I'm not really good at that. The whole, uh, "give yourself time to adjust" thing.

[ Sometimes, things just keep happening and happening and as much as she'd like to take a break, there's never been time for that. ]

But that's really the worst of it, you know? I've been pretty lucky.

Do you usually just learn as you go?

[Sounds dangerous. Gokudera needs to plot, plan, overthink, and strategize. Not to say he's rigid or can't adapt in the moment, but he's also very very meticulous.

He moves to pick up his bag and his familiar, cleverly disguised as a toy, pops his head out of his bag. Gokudera pokes at him, and the creature wobbles and extends its head further out, neck just... growing. Illusions are weird. His familiar is even weirder.]

Pretty much! That's been my life for the past, uh... three and a half years, I guess.

[ From day one, really, of her life in Chaldea. It's pretty wild to learn that magic was a real thing, not just stuff to be used in movies and manga.

When she sees the familiar appear, she doesn't think anything about it at first, but when it starts growing like that, she blinks a few times--one can almost see the neurons firing in her brain--before she just holds a hand out, tentatively. It's the way one might offer their hand to a dog for sniffing. ]

...Hi? Who's this?

Ah. It's Larry.

[The creature look up, then at that hand, then opens its mouth and a few marbles as big as its head roll out and into Ritsuka's palm. Gokudera clicks his tongue and grabs the creature up, offering it to her to hold. Larry looks very lazy, webbed paws and long tail hanging over Gokudera's fingers.]

[ ...it's cute...

She hesitates for a second, trying to figure out the best places to put her hands, then takes the little guy. Oh no. Oh no?? ]

Larry, huh...? Did you name him, or did he decide it?

I named him. He can't speak.

[Larry looks up at the girl with its big watery eyes, blinking one, then the other before it spits up a few more marbles, most of them clear, but some with swirls of color. Gifts~! It flaps about in the marbles slowly gathering in her cupped palms, and then lets out a little gargling noise.]

It's just short of Lariosauro. [He's not that creative, ok?]

He's really cute...!

[ Ritsuka sounds genuinely delighted by this, lifting Larry and his little marble presents up to get a better look. You don't have to be fluffy or fuzzy to be cute, in her opinion.

Her next comment is directed to him: ]

Thank you, they're very pretty.

He's usually much bigger...

[Larry lets out more gargling noises and keeps slapping his little webbed paws in delight at her approval. Most people think the presents are gross!

Gokudera digs about in his bag, then walks up with a small drawstring pouch for her.]

You can keep them in here. They'll turn to bubble barriers around whatever you throw them at.

Larry.

[The creature looks over at him.]

Be honest.

[Larry gives a nod, then hops off those hands to splat right onto the ground and grow, stopping when he's nearly the size of a horse, his webbed paws (similar to sea lion fins), drag and he wobbles before looking up and bumping his large scaly head to the girl's shoulder.]

--Oh. Hi.

[ She's a little surprised--who wouldn't be, after that?--but not alarmed, taking the bag to pour the marbles into the bag before reaching to pet Larry's muzzle again. ]

Bubble barriers, huh? I don't really get how magic works in this place, honestly. The one guy who told me anything at all was just kind of cranky about everything. [ For a variety of reasons, all of them probably personal. ] But that sounds useful.

[ Especially for her. She keeps petting Larry, almost meditative. ]

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