You keep...blaming yourself for something that was and always has been my problem. I lashed out at you, I made it so that you'd want to ghost me rather than spend the evening with me after I revealed my identity. All of these things are consequences of my actions.
Why do you keep apologizing for the fact that I'm just not a good person? That I'm screwed up? You didn't make me this way!
[As he gets more worked up, he turns to the edge of the pool and rises out of it a bit.]
Why do you keep trying to take responsibility for the fact that I'm so...messed up that I almost got myself killed today?
[He's barely fighting the quaver in his voice but it might start becoming obvious now.]
[The fact that, deep down? He truly hates himself. He wants connections that he's afraid to work for. He acts like he's fine all alone when all he wants is a place somewhere.]
...I don't deserve your kindness, Allura. I haven't from the start. All I did was antagonize you. Push your buttons. It's like...I don't know how to be the man you danced with that night. Why would you waste your time with someone like that...?
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You keep...blaming yourself for something that was and always has been my problem. I lashed out at you, I made it so that you'd want to ghost me rather than spend the evening with me after I revealed my identity. All of these things are consequences of my actions.
Why do you keep apologizing for the fact that I'm just not a good person? That I'm screwed up? You didn't make me this way!
[As he gets more worked up, he turns to the edge of the pool and rises out of it a bit.]
Why do you keep trying to take responsibility for the fact that I'm so...messed up that I almost got myself killed today?
[He's barely fighting the quaver in his voice but it might start becoming obvious now.]
[The fact that, deep down? He truly hates himself. He wants connections that he's afraid to work for. He acts like he's fine all alone when all he wants is a place somewhere.]
...I don't deserve your kindness, Allura. I haven't from the start. All I did was antagonize you. Push your buttons. It's like...I don't know how to be the man you danced with that night. Why would you waste your time with someone like that...?