[ It's a long, tense wait, but Rosho understands he can't push this issue any further than he can. Just because its become easier for him to open up to Sasara about the things that have troubled him in the past doesn't mean he should expect the same thing in return, not with Sasara's own issues to deal with, and how terribly he's hurt him to make things like this. But he meant what he said then up on Tsutenkaku. However long it takes for Sasara to trust him, he can wait, it doesn't matter. What's important is being there for him, with him.
And it comes out of him so easily that Rosho doesn't even believe what he says. He stands there, silent, a bit baffled. He can hear the rain from outside pattering against the window, on the roof of the inn, what with them being up on the higher floor. The way Sasara looks before him... just that, it's too much. Like he's put him right back in that spot the day they broke up.
That's right. It rained that time, the night they broke up.
Rosho rushes to him without a second thought and envelops Sasara in his arms, voice firm and tense, heavy in his throat. ]
Thank you for telling me.
[ He can't say anything at first, he just holds him, pulling Sasara tight against his chest. His eyes burn with tears but he pushes them back. To think that he'd hurt him that badly, to think that... all this time, he wasn't the only one dealing with the effects of his leaving the group. He'd never thought about it, never considered it, that this, all this... was his fault.
No.
Sasara would never blame him. And in that thought, Rosho's mind starts to clear, and all the anger and remorse and misery just seems to fade away. ]
Remember... how you always tell me you're going to help me get over my stage fright? It's not easy, but, I don't think it's impossible. You too. However long it takes, I think we can get there. You and I. So the things that hurt us back then don't hurt us anymore.
[ Beyond that night, past that frightening experience up on stage, don't they have so many other, better memories? Aren't they here now, even after all that? ]
Sasara. Its been raining all this time, but I'm still here, aren't I? I told you. I'm gonna be by your side from now on.
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And it comes out of him so easily that Rosho doesn't even believe what he says. He stands there, silent, a bit baffled. He can hear the rain from outside pattering against the window, on the roof of the inn, what with them being up on the higher floor. The way Sasara looks before him... just that, it's too much. Like he's put him right back in that spot the day they broke up.
That's right. It rained that time, the night they broke up.
Rosho rushes to him without a second thought and envelops Sasara in his arms, voice firm and tense, heavy in his throat. ]
Thank you for telling me.
[ He can't say anything at first, he just holds him, pulling Sasara tight against his chest. His eyes burn with tears but he pushes them back. To think that he'd hurt him that badly, to think that... all this time, he wasn't the only one dealing with the effects of his leaving the group. He'd never thought about it, never considered it, that this, all this... was his fault.
No.
Sasara would never blame him. And in that thought, Rosho's mind starts to clear, and all the anger and remorse and misery just seems to fade away. ]
Remember... how you always tell me you're going to help me get over my stage fright? It's not easy, but, I don't think it's impossible. You too. However long it takes, I think we can get there. You and I. So the things that hurt us back then don't hurt us anymore.
[ Beyond that night, past that frightening experience up on stage, don't they have so many other, better memories? Aren't they here now, even after all that? ]
Sasara. Its been raining all this time, but I'm still here, aren't I? I told you. I'm gonna be by your side from now on.