[The sense of betrayal is less intense, but likely stands out compared to the other pain Gokudera's trying to let go of. It's merely a facet of anger in his mourning, frustration and locking himself away, committing to someone who promised they wouldn't ever leave. It's not fair to blame anyone this world took away, but that won't stop how he feels. Not having to speak this makes him feel less immature. To voice his anger would be unreasonable.
It's his own fault for being hurt, he thinks. He shouldn't have let himself get so happy. Gokudera should have known that everything would balance out, and so a swing in the direction of his good fortune on another world made the crash back in Avalon that much worse.
But it's all just becoming a low level frustration the more he accepts that he can't change any of how he feels. It's just going to happen, and the point of this meditation is to heal. He won't if he stays hung up on every roadblock and gets in the way of his own happiness here.
Expression hidden, he's not looking at his companion so much as feeling that the weight on his shoulders is lifting. Hijikata is... accepting of his feelings, and this isn't any way of sharing that makes the teen feel as vulnerable. It's easier to just let it out, to acknowledge and move on. He takes a few more slow, deep breaths and his grip softens at the rub of the other man's thumb.
Then he's looking at Hijikata before moving to stand, to break that connection and walk away. He pulls out his cigarettes, taps the box against his palm, pulls one out and offers to the other before nodding his head to the side, inviting him to join him in a walk and a smoke. They can talk, if the other wants. Gokudera has questions of his own.]
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It's his own fault for being hurt, he thinks. He shouldn't have let himself get so happy. Gokudera should have known that everything would balance out, and so a swing in the direction of his good fortune on another world made the crash back in Avalon that much worse.
But it's all just becoming a low level frustration the more he accepts that he can't change any of how he feels. It's just going to happen, and the point of this meditation is to heal. He won't if he stays hung up on every roadblock and gets in the way of his own happiness here.
Expression hidden, he's not looking at his companion so much as feeling that the weight on his shoulders is lifting. Hijikata is... accepting of his feelings, and this isn't any way of sharing that makes the teen feel as vulnerable. It's easier to just let it out, to acknowledge and move on. He takes a few more slow, deep breaths and his grip softens at the rub of the other man's thumb.
Then he's looking at Hijikata before moving to stand, to break that connection and walk away. He pulls out his cigarettes, taps the box against his palm, pulls one out and offers to the other before nodding his head to the side, inviting him to join him in a walk and a smoke. They can talk, if the other wants. Gokudera has questions of his own.]