[ A hiccup on set, or getting hung up on a line during a show, that's small stuff. Mistakes are bigger things to Sasara, like letting go of a friend or even pushing them away altogether. Mistakes are something Sasara thinks of the way Rosho does not. More than a mess up that just happens and you move on, more like, something you're not allowed to move on from unless you've done your all to fix it.
Fleetingly, he doesn't just think about the moment and Rei.
There's nowhere else to look but Rosho's face. To hear these sorts of words and find the wisdom not just in what he's saying, but the look in his partner's eyes. Hah... he can laugh about that one later, maybe. ]
Rosho...
[ If not for some mistakes, things wouldn't have went the way they did. After all, he's said it himself, as for the two of them they would've split anyway, and then what? They wouldn't even be here. Being the one looking up at Rosho, right now, he can't really picture it the other way around—
Sasara suddenly snaps out of it with that thought: How many times is he going to make Rosho say it? That ain't fair. ]
It's on me.
[ His fault... but he isn't saying it to feel sorry, now. Rosho looking up to him, he should have someone worth looking up to. They've come clean about all that, up on the tower, but maybe the meaning of it wasn't there yet. It's not just about the D.R.B., this is about life.
You've gotta be the one to change things yourself.
You can only trust someone else if you decide so yourself. ]
Maybe I thought ya couldn't take it, even though you showed me that ya did. I got it wrong about trusting the old man, so I... [ He finally lets one hand go to wipe his face. ] I got confused, I didn't know what to tell ya. I still don't know what to do but— But I can't do anything on my own!
[ He needs to, despite it all, finally confide in someone else. Right now, there's only one person of that sort. ]
I've gotta rely on you.
[ With the old man's part in all that, it's about Rei having been in their lives, too. An idea Sasara doesn't like is that there ain't a way back... but, the way Rosho says, there oughta be a path forward. ]
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Fleetingly, he doesn't just think about the moment and Rei.
There's nowhere else to look but Rosho's face. To hear these sorts of words and find the wisdom not just in what he's saying, but the look in his partner's eyes. Hah... he can laugh about that one later, maybe. ]
Rosho...
[ If not for some mistakes, things wouldn't have went the way they did. After all, he's said it himself, as for the two of them they would've split anyway, and then what? They wouldn't even be here. Being the one looking up at Rosho, right now, he can't really picture it the other way around—
Sasara suddenly snaps out of it with that thought: How many times is he going to make Rosho say it? That ain't fair. ]
It's on me.
[ His fault... but he isn't saying it to feel sorry, now. Rosho looking up to him, he should have someone worth looking up to. They've come clean about all that, up on the tower, but maybe the meaning of it wasn't there yet. It's not just about the D.R.B., this is about life.
You've gotta be the one to change things yourself.
You can only trust someone else if you decide so yourself. ]
Maybe I thought ya couldn't take it, even though you showed me that ya did. I got it wrong about trusting the old man, so I... [ He finally lets one hand go to wipe his face. ] I got confused, I didn't know what to tell ya. I still don't know what to do but— But I can't do anything on my own!
[ He needs to, despite it all, finally confide in someone else. Right now, there's only one person of that sort. ]
I've gotta rely on you.
[ With the old man's part in all that, it's about Rei having been in their lives, too. An idea Sasara doesn't like is that there ain't a way back... but, the way Rosho says, there oughta be a path forward. ]