[ Everything feels as if its spiraling beyond their control, but the moment he hears those last words, Rosho knows what he needs to do. ]
Listen to me.
[ He takes Sasara's face in his hands. He can't let him hide from this, what he wants to say. ]
I can't ever imagine making the sort of decisions you've made since the first day I met you. Ya might think they were bad decisions, that ya made mistakes. But you didn't. Those were all your choices and they mattered. Everything that someone does matters in some way.
[ He's always hated it, the negative connotation people create for themselves and others over the simple use of one word: mistake. Its like some terrible, irreparable sort of thing that you should never do, with a painful stigma that lingers until you do something to correct it. But mistakes are natural. Mistakes are everywhere. Everything in this life comes from trial and error. No one is perfect.
What's the problem in messing up here and there? Who does that hurt? What are you doing wrong? Absolutely nothing. You're still learning. All those choices, all those decisions, those have worth in them. ]
Even after I left, you still went after your dream, and you've never stopped. But you couldn't bring yourself to get over me. Ya saw somethin' in the two of us being together that I couldn't. So, when it was time for ya to need a team again, ya knew exactly who to go to. I told ya no, but that didn't matter, because anytime your mind's made up there's no changing it. You're stubborn, but you're also so strong, and so sure, and it was because of that that I chose to be with you again.
[ Slowly, steadily, Rosho would realize that these "mistakes" were nothing. Because they would soon lead him somewhere, as long as he allowed himself to follow the path it'd formed. And that was here. At Sasara's side. Helping him. Supporting him.
Everything, everyone has purpose. Everything you do has worth.
Sometimes you need someone to show it to you. ]
Ya know by now... I've always been afraid of messing up again, of not bein' enough, of not being strong enough. I wanted to be enough. For us, for you. I... I told Rei. I told him that I looked up to you, and that I wanted you to approve of me. That night was when I figured it out. Not because Rei told me anything, but just because he listened to me. I knew that I needed to stop being afraid and having these expectations of myself. I had to prove myself. I had to show you.
[ He can't bring himself to say it with the revelation of what sort of person Rei turned out to be, but Rosho can't say they would've been better off without him. If he'd never joined their team, things would be better.
Maybe, in some sad way... Rosho and Sasara were too blinded by the height of the pedestals they put each other upon to fix the problems they clearly had, and it took someone else to see it and show them what to do in order to bring themselves on equal footing.
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Listen to me.
[ He takes Sasara's face in his hands. He can't let him hide from this, what he wants to say. ]
I can't ever imagine making the sort of decisions you've made since the first day I met you. Ya might think they were bad decisions, that ya made mistakes. But you didn't. Those were all your choices and they mattered. Everything that someone does matters in some way.
[ He's always hated it, the negative connotation people create for themselves and others over the simple use of one word: mistake. Its like some terrible, irreparable sort of thing that you should never do, with a painful stigma that lingers until you do something to correct it. But mistakes are natural. Mistakes are everywhere. Everything in this life comes from trial and error. No one is perfect.
What's the problem in messing up here and there? Who does that hurt? What are you doing wrong? Absolutely nothing. You're still learning. All those choices, all those decisions, those have worth in them. ]
Even after I left, you still went after your dream, and you've never stopped. But you couldn't bring yourself to get over me. Ya saw somethin' in the two of us being together that I couldn't. So, when it was time for ya to need a team again, ya knew exactly who to go to. I told ya no, but that didn't matter, because anytime your mind's made up there's no changing it. You're stubborn, but you're also so strong, and so sure, and it was because of that that I chose to be with you again.
[ Slowly, steadily, Rosho would realize that these "mistakes" were nothing. Because they would soon lead him somewhere, as long as he allowed himself to follow the path it'd formed. And that was here. At Sasara's side. Helping him. Supporting him.
Everything, everyone has purpose. Everything you do has worth.
Sometimes you need someone to show it to you. ]
Ya know by now... I've always been afraid of messing up again, of not bein' enough, of not being strong enough. I wanted to be enough. For us, for you. I... I told Rei. I told him that I looked up to you, and that I wanted you to approve of me. That night was when I figured it out. Not because Rei told me anything, but just because he listened to me. I knew that I needed to stop being afraid and having these expectations of myself. I had to prove myself. I had to show you.
[ He can't bring himself to say it with the revelation of what sort of person Rei turned out to be, but Rosho can't say they would've been better off without him. If he'd never joined their team, things would be better.
Maybe, in some sad way... Rosho and Sasara were too blinded by the height of the pedestals they put each other upon to fix the problems they clearly had, and it took someone else to see it and show them what to do in order to bring themselves on equal footing.
That was Rei. ]