[ He knows he shouldn't go down this road in this conversation, not during dinner, not when it doesn't have to involve anyone but the two of them. But its eating away at Rosho just like it always does, the realization that something is wrong, something is missing, and he's the only one that acknowledges it. And all Sasara can do is shrug his shoulders and laugh it off and pretend that nothing is wrong. Nothing's wrong.
Rosho's sick and tired of it. ]
I don't get it. [ He fixes a conflicted look into his bowl, promptly losing his appetite. This isn't a conversation about food anymore. He's not going to let Sasara keep sweeping this issue under the rug. ]
I just— I don't get it. He goes through the trouble of havin'' you and I meet, then you let him join our group. Then he goes out of his way to help us again. Nothing's happened at all between us, no one said anything, and then he decides he wants to go off on his own? Without telling us a single thing about why? If it was a few days it wouldn't be a big deal. If it was a week or two, maybe that'd be a pass, but we haven't seen Rei in over a month. Hell, its gonna be two months! He won't see us, he won't talk to us. Its like we just don't matter, because what? We don't know why! And you're gonna let this keep happenin', just like that? Does he not care anymore? Are we supposed to not care anymore?!
[ Rosho hushes immediately as he realizes he's started to yell. As frustrated as he is, he understands there's no reason to let out his anger on Sasara like this, but in a way... he can't help but be mad at him too. Because he's their leader. He let Rei join this group. And he won't do anything about his absence, as if he's perfectly okay with the whole thing.
No one has a problem with what's going on except for Rosho. He's done pretending to be okay with that. ]
This whole thing, even if I'm makin' it too big of a deal, I can't. I can't help it. It pisses me off so damn much that we trusted him as much as we did and he won't do the same thing with us. Now he doesn't care. And you... you make it seem like ya don't care either. I really... I hate it.
[ He hates it, when he's left in the dark like this. Maybe he cares too much, maybe his heart is too soft, maybe he takes things too seriously. But having Rei with them really started to actually mean something. That old man, as rotten as he can be, as untrustworthy as Rosho knows he should be, he... he's not an inherently bad person.
The person that scammed his student. That's not the only Rei that Rosho knows now. He also knows the one that came to his house to share a drink with him, to talk to him about the person he looks up to the most, to share with him that he too used to have someone he felt the exact same way for.
(Or was that whole thing just a lie? Is this team, just a lie?) ]
What was the point of the two of you teachin' me to be more honest about myself, when no one else in this team wants to do the same thing...?
[ Or is the problem inherently in that single word: team.
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Rosho's sick and tired of it. ]
I don't get it. [ He fixes a conflicted look into his bowl, promptly losing his appetite. This isn't a conversation about food anymore. He's not going to let Sasara keep sweeping this issue under the rug. ]
I just— I don't get it. He goes through the trouble of havin'' you and I meet, then you let him join our group. Then he goes out of his way to help us again. Nothing's happened at all between us, no one said anything, and then he decides he wants to go off on his own? Without telling us a single thing about why? If it was a few days it wouldn't be a big deal. If it was a week or two, maybe that'd be a pass, but we haven't seen Rei in over a month. Hell, its gonna be two months! He won't see us, he won't talk to us. Its like we just don't matter, because what? We don't know why! And you're gonna let this keep happenin', just like that? Does he not care anymore? Are we supposed to not care anymore?!
[ Rosho hushes immediately as he realizes he's started to yell. As frustrated as he is, he understands there's no reason to let out his anger on Sasara like this, but in a way... he can't help but be mad at him too. Because he's their leader. He let Rei join this group. And he won't do anything about his absence, as if he's perfectly okay with the whole thing.
No one has a problem with what's going on except for Rosho. He's done pretending to be okay with that. ]
This whole thing, even if I'm makin' it too big of a deal, I can't. I can't help it. It pisses me off so damn much that we trusted him as much as we did and he won't do the same thing with us. Now he doesn't care. And you... you make it seem like ya don't care either. I really... I hate it.
[ He hates it, when he's left in the dark like this. Maybe he cares too much, maybe his heart is too soft, maybe he takes things too seriously. But having Rei with them really started to actually mean something. That old man, as rotten as he can be, as untrustworthy as Rosho knows he should be, he... he's not an inherently bad person.
The person that scammed his student. That's not the only Rei that Rosho knows now. He also knows the one that came to his house to share a drink with him, to talk to him about the person he looks up to the most, to share with him that he too used to have someone he felt the exact same way for.
(Or was that whole thing just a lie? Is this team, just a lie?) ]
What was the point of the two of you teachin' me to be more honest about myself, when no one else in this team wants to do the same thing...?
[ Or is the problem inherently in that single word: team.
Are they not a team anymore? ]