[It's an interesting question to start with. The whole time that he opens up to her, she's listening quietly, hearing out the grief that's been brewing in his heart over a lifetime. She doesn't interrupt — not even to point out that she's well aware that he hurt people in the attack, and that he was in there despite the monstrous appearance. It's surely a symbol of his trauma that he would still be questioning what her motive is in all this.]
[Perhaps he'll find it even more baffling when, at the suggestion that she abandon him, she instead steps forward to embrace him. Firmly, unhesitating, her arms wrapping across his back to pull him in close to her shoulder.]
Do you remember every moment of it? Because when I was drawing that curse from your body, I did already say that I would be here, whenever you needed it. That no matter what you tell yourself, I know for a fact you deserve it...
[And maybe that didn't reach him. After all, that form of his turned out to be Diomuhr, didn't it? If it was inside his dream, would he still have heard it as a spectator regardless?]
If you want to make amends with all the people you've hurt, then you cannot leave yourself out of it. People will forgive you for what happened here. I know they will, as soon as they learn that it was never your intent nor your choice. If it was, would you be working yourself sick trying to undo it all?
But their forgiveness won't mean anything until you forgive yourself, rather than trying to bury yourself in shame.
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[It's an interesting question to start with. The whole time that he opens up to her, she's listening quietly, hearing out the grief that's been brewing in his heart over a lifetime. She doesn't interrupt — not even to point out that she's well aware that he hurt people in the attack, and that he was in there despite the monstrous appearance. It's surely a symbol of his trauma that he would still be questioning what her motive is in all this.]
[Perhaps he'll find it even more baffling when, at the suggestion that she abandon him, she instead steps forward to embrace him. Firmly, unhesitating, her arms wrapping across his back to pull him in close to her shoulder.]
Do you remember every moment of it? Because when I was drawing that curse from your body, I did already say that I would be here, whenever you needed it. That no matter what you tell yourself, I know for a fact you deserve it...
[And maybe that didn't reach him. After all, that form of his turned out to be Diomuhr, didn't it? If it was inside his dream, would he still have heard it as a spectator regardless?]
If you want to make amends with all the people you've hurt, then you cannot leave yourself out of it. People will forgive you for what happened here. I know they will, as soon as they learn that it was never your intent nor your choice. If it was, would you be working yourself sick trying to undo it all?
But their forgiveness won't mean anything until you forgive yourself, rather than trying to bury yourself in shame.