I don't really trust it, either, and I'm pretty committed to what I've decided to do. I still don't know about being a heroine or anything, but... once I decide to do something, I tend to stick with it.

But I'm not a desperate person, either. I can only speculate--I don't know what it's like to hit a wall and not feel like you have any other choices.

[ She considers for a moment, then reaches out, carefully, to touch Monika's hand. ]

I also know what a monster is like. I really don't think you're anything like that.