[As someone who journals his feelings frequently, it isn't too difficult to put his worries to paper. Making them succinct is a bit more difficult. He wants them clear where he can see them, and goes through the effort to underline anything he thinks is the main point of his concerns as of late. He has a lot.
The procedure he'll undergo is one he's decided on. Is it right? Is there some other method to remove the collar? What if he's actually been such a burden to the people around him that he actually dies as a result? Then he'll feel bad for dying in front of them, for having his plan fall through. It's a lot, and he hasn't reached out to everyone he probably should have. There are people that care about him that he hardly ever speaks to.
Gokudera is sitting outside when he writes, just outside the city. He doesn't want to contribute to the congested feeling of that place. It's easier to create for him without pressure from others. That, and if this is supposed to help him, he'll want some privacy.]
I worry about leaving or abandoning the people I care about.
[He's been to two other worlds. People leave. Sometimes they come back. Gokudera is accepting of that, but this leaving, this possibility of death hovering over him is something he needs to recognize and accept. To face, and looking down at those words helps.]
I worry that I won't be strong enough to make it through what I have to. That I will not only fail myself but fail everyone counting on me.
[He looks on at the second paper, then at his worries, then scratches his head before writing how he feels:]
I'm scared of the inevitable. Everyone probably has the same sort of worries as me, and they keep going. Even if I die, will it really be the end? I'm not alone, even if I leave. They aren't alone, either.
[He smiles softly, then watches as the writing vanishes and the papers move to fold and become a gargoyle. It's kind of cute, kind of bulky, and despite having wings, it starts to walk.]
Hey! Wait up!
[Gokudera maybe shouldn't follow the little monster, and once it returns to collect him and bring him to his worry-matching person, he'll be clinging to it up until the very end.]
B. Cursed Dolls
[Gokudera isn't actually too interested in collecting tokens, but he's willing to help others find them. He isn't super excited about candy (except maybe giving it to the kids he knows), and his lungs occasionally put out smoke. As 'Smoking Bomb Hayato', a smoker, and an explosives expert, he doesn't need or want for more smoke. The tentacle... is just a hard NO from him. He'll help whoever wants more tokens. This is maybe a good use of time to help those around him.
Feels odd when he thinks about how this may be his last month alive. But probably not! He's trying to stay positive.
He's also curious what a doll-version of himself may look like, and he likes the forest. Gokudera prefers being outside in this season most, and can be found looking about for a doll!
And he's pretty sure he finds one, but then he's got something large and wet wrapped around him, is disgusted, then lifted up and yelling while throwing some bombs at the mimic that has him.]
Blindness Hex
[Gokudera is picking up a blindfold and frowning.]
I'm not going to touch anything dead, am I?
[Ultimately, the boy doesn't wait for an answer. He bets it's a trick. The fae do tricky stuff like that, right?]
Gokudera Hayato | Katekyo Hitman Reborn! | OTA
[As someone who journals his feelings frequently, it isn't too difficult to put his worries to paper. Making them succinct is a bit more difficult. He wants them clear where he can see them, and goes through the effort to underline anything he thinks is the main point of his concerns as of late. He has a lot.
The procedure he'll undergo is one he's decided on. Is it right? Is there some other method to remove the collar? What if he's actually been such a burden to the people around him that he actually dies as a result? Then he'll feel bad for dying in front of them, for having his plan fall through. It's a lot, and he hasn't reached out to everyone he probably should have. There are people that care about him that he hardly ever speaks to.
Gokudera is sitting outside when he writes, just outside the city. He doesn't want to contribute to the congested feeling of that place. It's easier to create for him without pressure from others. That, and if this is supposed to help him, he'll want some privacy.]
I worry about leaving or abandoning the people I care about.
[He's been to two other worlds. People leave. Sometimes they come back. Gokudera is accepting of that, but this leaving, this possibility of death hovering over him is something he needs to recognize and accept. To face, and looking down at those words helps.]
I worry that I won't be strong enough to make it through what I have to. That I will not only fail myself but fail everyone counting on me.
[He looks on at the second paper, then at his worries, then scratches his head before writing how he feels:]
I'm scared of the inevitable. Everyone probably has the same sort of worries as me, and they keep going. Even if I die, will it really be the end? I'm not alone, even if I leave. They aren't alone, either.
[He smiles softly, then watches as the writing vanishes and the papers move to fold and become a gargoyle. It's kind of cute, kind of bulky, and despite having wings, it starts to walk.]
Hey! Wait up!
[Gokudera maybe shouldn't follow the little monster, and once it returns to collect him and bring him to his worry-matching person, he'll be clinging to it up until the very end.]
B. Cursed Dolls
[Gokudera isn't actually too interested in collecting tokens, but he's willing to help others find them. He isn't super excited about candy (except maybe giving it to the kids he knows), and his lungs occasionally put out smoke. As 'Smoking Bomb Hayato', a smoker, and an explosives expert, he doesn't need or want for more smoke. The tentacle... is just a hard NO from him. He'll help whoever wants more tokens. This is maybe a good use of time to help those around him.
Feels odd when he thinks about how this may be his last month alive. But probably not! He's trying to stay positive.
He's also curious what a doll-version of himself may look like, and he likes the forest. Gokudera prefers being outside in this season most, and can be found looking about for a doll!
And he's pretty sure he finds one, but then he's got something large and wet wrapped around him, is disgusted, then lifted up and yelling while throwing some bombs at the mimic that has him.]
Blindness Hex
[Gokudera is picking up a blindfold and frowning.]
I'm not going to touch anything dead, am I?
[Ultimately, the boy doesn't wait for an answer. He bets it's a trick. The fae do tricky stuff like that, right?]
Alright, let's get this over with.