[She considers leaving it. It would be better to just drop it and never revisit it again. It would be easier to ignore everything she's been feeling since landing in Camelot, that's only gotten worse as time went on. She's held it in, close to her heart, since she'd heard it from Aerith—he hadn't been by to see her in a long time—and she wondered: will it be the same for her, too?
They've been through so much together already. As kids, and now. They lost their home together, twice, and their friends and family. So why...
She shouldn't be so angry about this, but it's hard not to be when the thought is always there, constantly ringing its reminder in the back of her mind that she's been forgotten about. The constant pull of loneliness in her chest, and how that decade-long desire to be with Cloud is somehow fading, but not the want for... someone else? It's difficult to process.
Finally, after a longer stretch of silence—how long had it been? It felt like only a few seconds to her, but it had been minutes, she speaks in a strained voice.]
Cloud...
[And before she knows it or stop it, a sob breaks free, and she brings her hands up over her face to cover it up. It does nothing to stop it but does the opposite of that—her next one comes, bigger and louder, and tears start to pour down the sides of her buried face.]
He promised... I thought he forgot, after all this time, but he remembered...?
[Her voice strains at the question.
Had he truly remembered, or intended to keep that promise? If she was ever trapped or in trouble, he would come save her, but where was he now? She can't even fault him for it, she knows—perhaps he's moved on, or forgotten about her. They all had different memories, after all, and his could be out of sync with hers for all she knows, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. If anything, it only pains her more to think that they would be so out of sync.]
He promised he would be the one to...
[She can't even finish her sentence, her voice drowned out by her louder cries.]
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They've been through so much together already. As kids, and now. They lost their home together, twice, and their friends and family. So why...
She shouldn't be so angry about this, but it's hard not to be when the thought is always there, constantly ringing its reminder in the back of her mind that she's been forgotten about. The constant pull of loneliness in her chest, and how that decade-long desire to be with Cloud is somehow fading, but not the want for... someone else? It's difficult to process.
Finally, after a longer stretch of silence—how long had it been? It felt like only a few seconds to her, but it had been minutes, she speaks in a strained voice.]
Cloud...
[And before she knows it or stop it, a sob breaks free, and she brings her hands up over her face to cover it up. It does nothing to stop it but does the opposite of that—her next one comes, bigger and louder, and tears start to pour down the sides of her buried face.]
He promised... I thought he forgot, after all this time, but he remembered...?
[Her voice strains at the question.
Had he truly remembered, or intended to keep that promise? If she was ever trapped or in trouble, he would come save her, but where was he now? She can't even fault him for it, she knows—perhaps he's moved on, or forgotten about her. They all had different memories, after all, and his could be out of sync with hers for all she knows, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. If anything, it only pains her more to think that they would be so out of sync.]
He promised he would be the one to...
[She can't even finish her sentence, her voice drowned out by her louder cries.]