[Ha, no kidding. He lets out a humorless sigh of a laugh; the Alien God really, probably should not be trusted, and he knows that. He'd known even then, or at least suspected, because he suspects everything. But seriously, an offer like that? It was just that he couldn't refuse it. The alternative had literally been death.]
Yeah. . . . The Alien God showed me—us—what had happened after our deaths. We got to see what Fujimaru managed to pull off to save the world. And I couldn't get over it. Everything about her is clumsy and amateur! No one knew what the hell they were doing. There were casualties and tragedies that didn't have to come to pass, all because someone who wasn't trained, not even a mage, was the only Master humanity had left.
[He grimaces, turning his head away. There's something childish about the way he still feels about it when he gets going on the subject, as much as he's over the worst of it. He's left his pathetic rage behind him, but not his pettiness.]
It wasn't supposed to be her. That was all I could think about. It was supposed to be me, and if it had been me, people wouldn't have died. It wouldn't have spiraled outta hand the way it did! You've got no idea how close humanity came to total annihilation. And yeah, I know what really matters is that she won in the end, but at the time . . . that was the last thing on my mind. After seeing that, I couldn't accept my own death. I couldn't just let it go and accept it was over and she'd won. It wasn't fair.
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Yeah. . . . The Alien God showed me—us—what had happened after our deaths. We got to see what Fujimaru managed to pull off to save the world. And I couldn't get over it. Everything about her is clumsy and amateur! No one knew what the hell they were doing. There were casualties and tragedies that didn't have to come to pass, all because someone who wasn't trained, not even a mage, was the only Master humanity had left.
[He grimaces, turning his head away. There's something childish about the way he still feels about it when he gets going on the subject, as much as he's over the worst of it. He's left his pathetic rage behind him, but not his pettiness.]
It wasn't supposed to be her. That was all I could think about. It was supposed to be me, and if it had been me, people wouldn't have died. It wouldn't have spiraled outta hand the way it did! You've got no idea how close humanity came to total annihilation. And yeah, I know what really matters is that she won in the end, but at the time . . . that was the last thing on my mind. After seeing that, I couldn't accept my own death. I couldn't just let it go and accept it was over and she'd won. It wasn't fair.