[ She nodded. Stage fright was a pretty accurate metaphor. Except here, it was being yourself that was scary, while putting on an act and being someone else was the easy part. She thought about that a bit before replying. ]

I guess... [She paused.] But it's not just the haters. I'm, um, a bit of a perfectionist.

[ Someone who put on a show to cast spells and felt like doing silly things? That was about as far removed from her image of perfection as possible... Fun as it was to do said silly things. ]

If I'm not perfect all the time, I feel like I'm letting people down. Like I'm not trying hard enough to be my best self. [She closed her eyes and shook her head.] Kinda silly, uh?